- Invited a few people at work to join me for bubble tea. They said they already had something scheduled though. But somehow I didn’t have to think much before doing it.
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Asked to be banned in a chat group where I kept lurking alot (and occasionally getting frustrated as well). Previously I would’ve probably spent a much longer time considering.
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Going to Pride today even though I don’t even know if I want to go there or what I will be doing there. Just going because I’m going.
- Once again started laundry late (midnight!) just because there’s no choice. If I don’t have clean clothes tomorrow, I won’t have clean clothes tomorrow. It’s nice not to have choice.
i hope you had a good time!
I did!
I didn’t, that day, but I’m doing it for the past few days.
Life’s alright
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Just messaged my landlord, asking him if he’ll sign a new contract for the next year.
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(I feel anxiety now, and… I think it’s because I don’t trust myself to handle the situation if he says “no”. I’ll just procrastinate on finding a new apt until I’m on the street with all my things.)
- (For what it’s worth, this is true. It will happen. Whatever.)
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At work, used “Emily” in branch name.
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At work, made a PR that doesn’t belong to any jira but that I think is good.
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At work, wrote in a chat that I’ll reveal my salary if five people commit to do the same.
- (Turns out most people have B2B contracts so they’re in a more precarious position, but still a good try.)
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Mentioned my game http://ches.vercel.app in the Chess Simp discord.
- (Chess with challenges like “can only put your pieces on the light squares” etc.)
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Told the landlord I’ll be extending apt lease for another year. Whatever.
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Went to a pride party at work, saw that I didn’t have much desire to stay there, immediately left. The whole thing took like five minutes. Neat.
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Randomly streaming Ches development in the Chess Simp discord. Not even announcing anything anymore. Just starting stream and working silently. If I hear somebody joining, I say hi. Or cześć. Also neat.
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Was feeling somewhat upset that I don’t know how to find people to play Terraria with. Googled random servers. Joined and just asked questions in chat. “Where do I go, what do I do”. Eventually found a server that was manageable for me, I think.
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At work lunch, said that maybe I could do a workshop about a certain library (acid-state). Two people out of three said yes. Went back to work, wrote an email saying “whoever is interested in the workshop, write to me”. Very neat.
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Was looking at the [official employer] email inbox yesterday, noticed somebody asking me to complete a mood survey. Saw questions like “how satisfied are you with your onboarding” etc. Wrote a pageful on how I don’t know who my onboarding buddy is, how I have ADHD and it’s hard for me to put energy into resolving various things when 99% of my time is spent at the [de facto job], etc. If somebody starts a big discussion about it, I’ll just say “yes” to everything and then will continue mostly ignoring the official employer.
- I feel comfortable doing things behind people’s backs now. “Are you satisfied with everything?” — “Yes”. Leave the restaurant and write a three-star review. Would it have been better to answer honestly? Maybe. Don’t know, don’t care. Not a brave person. Might become braver, on my own timeframe.
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Wrote an email at work saying that I’m Emily now. Explicitly said it’s an experiment rather than an official coming-out. Again, could’ve been better to [whatever]. Not comfortable making demands on random people, I hope they’ll deal with it somehow.
Mood: No. - YouTube.