This is my 2nd or 3rd attempt at calendialish journalling. Intentionally cryptic motivation: I found reason to reevaluate whether to adjust my relationship with Beeminder. This thread will serve that purpose, I hope!
I feel like can go through next week just not derailing… but I at least want to have some more breathing room after that.
p.s. visual graph editor keeps hanging… I initially wanted to keep the goal date and total fixed, so that I’d be reminded of the impact of this change. But well, here’s the configuration pre this change. Goal date: 2026-11-22 / Total: 150 / Daily slope: 0.41209
I’m really happy with the earlier changes. I’ve managed to get both of the goals into safe territory before I traveled abroad.
Beebudget reports my running goal as the highest loading goal. I have my running gear with me as I’m away from home, I’ll be back home in 9 days, and otherwise I’m happy with the rate. So no changes.
Side note on beebudget and the playbook of this topic
When I made beebudget, I wanted to try out the idea quickly. It uses the goal configuration (which I believe means the last segment of the red line). Now that I’m using Beeminder in a slightly different way, this isn’t working well for me anymore. Until the next calendialing, I may fix that, or complicate the playbook to account for this.
This is the lowest level Computer Science material I’ve ever studied besides a introduction to computing course I took about 15 years ago. I find it mildly interesting and fun.
After ~13 hours and 1 derailment (a silly 5$ one, due to New Year’s Eve), a few things are clear to me:
I don’t want to be pushed so much to stick to this.
I don’t have an important reason to finish studying this in a year.
I don’t want to invest equally into studying SICP and CS:APP.
So I’m dialing this goal down:
Keeping the goal of studying 150 hours fixed, I moved the goal date to 2027-12-01.
This brings down the daily slope to about 12 minutes.
It’s written in a way I like and find intellectually pleasing to be busy with.
I also expect it to help with interviews and to have some signaling value, especially relevant in an era of vibe-coding as a self-taught programmer.
Total investment so far
Time:11:11
Derailments:0
I like being busy with this. Sometimes I get confused about why I’m doing it, since it serves two purposes. I want to stay busy and explore that “tension” a bit more.
Like noted last time, it feels good to stay busy with this. But I’ll be traveling back home to support my father and family during a hospital visit.
So my short-term goal is staying above the red line within the akrasia horizon. Until 23rd of January, I’ll consider anything beyond that a bonus.
My long-term goal didn’t change. So:
Came up with adjusted time commitments based on days: ½ pomodoro per tightly-constrained days (e.g. flight days, surgery day, etc.), ⅔ on the rest. Intentionally ambitious.
I entered this into the graph editor, which led to a rate that was ~3 times the last time I did this travel a few weeks back. I concluded my ambition had overshooted into unrealistic territory.
So I capped my ambition at 2 times the previous time.
This is a new goal that gets its data from Toggl. Only the time I spent “working on” (reading, writing, actively thinking) gissues tagged with “epistemic-hygiene” counts towards this.
(I was lazy naming this, I’d like to adjust later. It’s not a bad name your associations will likely be related to what I’m working on.)
It’s currently at 0.14286/day. For now I’ll
keep the total I’m aiming at (= 50 hours)
double the slope
This brings the goal date from towards the end of the year to 5th of July.
One of my 2026 ambitions is to use translate the effectiveness I get from Beeminder for than running and flossing to other goals. So I’d like to start increasing rates of my other goals or adding new ones, until my Beeminder commitments are proportional to my goals. Not sure if all of them will be beemindable, but between beebudget and toggle, I may be able to capture any activity. That’s the ambition anyway.
The playbook becomes:
Note down the percentage committed time per tag
Make an adjustment that aligns it with my higher level goals
I’d like to also add how I currently think about my higher level goals in this context, but that’ll be another time.
Here’s the current week-ahead committed time, grouped by tag:
Meta: ~58% (7h 49m)
Study: ~18% (2h 29m)
Health: ~16% (2h 05m)
Music: ~4% (33m)
Dutch: ~4% (30m)
Total: ~13h 27m.
I think meta is overestimated by 2-4 hours, for reasons not important.
My top priority right now is “Romantic relationship / Partner”, which has 0% explicit representation in my current commitments.
So I’ve added a new goal: attendio. Set at 10 minutes/day, tracking time spent (individually) in service of my romantic relationship. Concretely, things like:
preparing something (messages, gifts, plans)
working towards shared projects
What doesn’t count is time spent together. This is about attention, not proximity.
The commitment is deliberately modest. I’ve eeven put a 7 day long flatline at the start: I’ve just come out of a busy period and there’s a backlog to work through, which Beebudget helpfully keeps pointing out.
This is very much a step-1 move. I’m trying to see whether making this part of Beeminder turns out to be useful and fun at all.
My current playbook says: note the committed-time percentages, then adjust toward life goals.
Update
It’s been a few very busy weeks. I procrastinated a lot on study goals, which brought me too close to the red line more than I’d like. I’ve [mostly] stayed above the line. I’m finally able to build some breathing room.
Priorities
First an update on the relevant themes: I’ve been carrying “work” as a single priority, but that bundles a day job and a career venture, although the two come with very different energies. I also bumped “health” and “learning” above “meaning". Priorities/themes for the short-term future:
Partner
Venture
Physical health
Learning / Personal growth
Meaning / Philosophy / Spirituality
Community / Contribution
Relaxation / Leisure
Livelihood
Friends
Biological Family
Upcoming week by tag
Tag
%
meta
35.3
study
23.6
music
15.1
health
12.1
truth
10.4
partner
2.2
dutch
1.1
friends
0.1
Commentary
The change in priorities makes one thing very apparent: Venture gets no dedicated time.
Note on "partner"
Looking at Beebudget output, looks like this category is also under-committed, but there are parts of my relationship that’s not relevant (and is not captured) in this context.
Most of my meta and study time are in the mornings. So far, I’ve carved some time for Venture spontaneously. A few things have become clear to me:
Part of the “meta” has an ignition function. It pulls me in a motivational context where I can find energy to do other stuff. It also spills over to meaning and learning.
Still, “meta” activities are mostly yak-shaving, and I experience the least resistance if I reach for it.
I experience more resistance for study and venture, so meta eats into them. Study eats into venture in its turn.
Changes
I’m thinking introducing some structure to my mornings may be an interesting example. My current morning window is ~1–1.5 hours, 4-5 days of the week. On short mornings, block 1 goes to meta, and I pick one of study or venture for block 2.
I’ll add another time-based goal “venture.” Gently at 5 mins/week, since I’m still busy building up buffer with study goals.
I’ll also bump partner commitment to 10 mins/day, since there are some projects/ideas I’d like to pursue on that end.